Amor Vincit Omnia

1:36 AM

Told you, I'm not gonna sleep without getting everything done. Natapos ko ang mga dapat tapusin at ayusin. Except us. Iniisip ko kung dapat pa bang ayusin or tapusin nalang. At this hour, tahimik na ang paligid. Bukod sa tunog ng fan, kuliglig, at hangin sa labas. Nakaupo ako ngayon sa kama. Natapos na ang kahapon, panibagong araw na ulit. Ang bilis ng oras. At bawat oras na natapos na ay hindi na pwede ibalik kahit ano pang gawin. What's done is done. Gusto ko masabi ko ngayon lahat sayo 'to nang kalmado ako at hindi nababagabag. At the end of the day, there's always someone whom I can lean on. Someone who has been there with me all the time. Although I admit, madalas ko syang maignore. You said, wag akong magpapacomfort sa iba. But you're wrong. I should have done this earlier. I decided to come to Him. Without words, without me crying out loud, I know He heard me. No words came out from my mouth. I was just staring blankly in my phone. As soon as I opened the bible, I got the answer. 

"You do not stay in anger forever but delight to show mercy." Words I didn't know I needed. From there I tried to come back to reality and reevaluate everything. 

God clearly sends me a message to not stay in anger but I still had to decide whether to keep you or just let everything go. I listened to my heart. I wanted to believe that you're the one I've prayed for. You're the one He gave me. I was and am blessed in innumerable ways ever since I had you. 

I did wrong. You did wrong. We all do. People always do. But it's never an excuse to convince yourself that it's okay. Forgiveness is probably the hardest thing to do. Everyone struggles to do so but only those who are strong enough endures. I've been hurt many times. Been in tough situations I never imagined I would overcome. And now, I am here, again. Stucked, still having so many questions. Am I over reacting? Am I just over analyzing everything? Regardless, this is something I needed to fix on my own. 

Now, you can breathe. Breathe the air of the new dawn for us. As a woman of my words, I will stay true to what I've said. I'll love you more than our petty quarrels. I will fight for us. I will be brave enough to withstand the weight no matter how heavy things get. 

Life is pretty short and unpredictable. Just as much as we enjoy the weather, it can get warm or cold, and I want you tnow that I'd still choose to embrace you whatever it is. Let's give ourselves another chance to start anew. I will still be here to remind you, nag you, annoy you and help you to be the best man you could ever be. I'll be brave enough to trust you again and accept everything that's been said and done. I can't promise that I'd always be this calm, I might still make mistakes, I might still hurt you. But, whatever happens, please always remember why we had each other in the first place. 

I am certain that we deserve each other. Sa mga susunod na araw, sana mas maappreciate natin ang isa't isa. Palaging piliing umunawa at magpaunawa. Masyado nang nakakapagod ang mundo. We had each other to make everything easier to bear. Every little thing matter. Sana this time, no secrets, no doubts, no pretentions. Okay? You do note'nt. Nakalimutan mong isa akong Mondragon kaya wag mo na ulit ako papaandaran. Pasalamat ka mahal na mahal  kita. Antok nako. Matutulog na ako. 2:32 

Good morning, mahal ko! 

Wag masyadong feel na feel, inaantay ko yung bawi mo. Baka magbago pa isip ko. 

Tulog na ko. 

Humayo ka at magpakabait! Wag ka na malungkot. Mahal kita, walang bawas. 

Love Conquers All 

just so u know, yan yung meaning nung title